I swear, there are times when they make me want to rip my hair out. There have been times recently that I have wanted to bang my head into a wall and scream...I don't have an infant anymore...I should NOT be having to get up every 30min-1 hr ALL NIGHT LONG!!! Then there are the HUGE cat fights between my 7 yr old and my 3 yr old, the thought processes of my 5 yr old who I guess has decided to test the laws of physics...and my sanity...in the past 3 weeks, and the allergy issues that have my 7 yr old being SUCH a crab b/c she is congested.
But then there are the sweet, slobbery kisses from my youngest...you literally have to tear yourself away from her to quit with the kisses...lol, the burrowing of my 5 yr old to get as close to me as possible to snuggle while watching a movie, my 7 yr olds unshakable belief that no matter the nightmare, no matter scare, no matter the injustice done to her...simply mommy being there makes all right with the world again.
They can drive me to distraction...and the edges of my sanity, yet the thought of them not in my life is incomprehensible. Whether it be walking into walls at 2am from lack of sleep to answer the call of a scared child, or cradling a precious child in my arms, kissing their head, smelling their sweet kid smell, their little arms wrapped around mine...my heart is full to bursting with love...and the awesome responsiblity of raising them right. I hope I don't let them down.