I'm really just done with it all. The drama, the back stabbing, the bickering, I'm just done with it all. Lord knows I have enough to deal with in my OWN immediate family...I simply CANNOT deal with it from friends, extended family and others right now. AT ALL. And that might come across as selfish...and maybe it is. But that is being selfish for the well being of my immediate family. Because if I am not at MY best, I can't be at my best for them as a mom and as a person in general. So don't judge me until you have walked a mile....HECK, just walk FIVE MINUTES in my shoes....in the summer time.

Time Flies

It's amazing how fast time can fly. It seems like we just moved in. I keep telling people, "we just moved...wait...no, we got here in July, we've bee here for 10 months now." Nearly a year already!!! The girls have only 1 more month of school. I don't know if they are just DONE already or what, but with the exception of Emma just doing well at her school work b/c she always does...Abby and Bethany are just having SUCH issues! Bethany...it's like she has already mental checked out for the year. But she CAN'T because she still has her writing assessment to do. She might have finished the FCAT and her portfolio already, but it's like she's given up already. And Abby...UGH! I don't know if it is hormones or WHAT but something has GOT to GIVE with that child!! I sooooo at the end of my rope!!! SO FRUSTRATED!!! We have another neuro appt tomorrow because although her EEG and MRI here in Florida have both come back not showing any issues, she is still having seizures...several in a month. So when we called to make the appt, they told us over the phone to up her meds. THAT was a disaster!! It completely altered her personality. She literally could NOT function anywhere....school, therapy, home, church. So I cut her dosage back down to what she was on originally. But in doing that...she is back to having several seizures in a short amount of time. She's had 2 just this past week for sure...one of them waking her up for the 1st time. We NEED ANSWERS!!! I can't go on like this...ABBY can't go on like this. This is badly affecting her behavior and it is directly impacting our entire lives...school, church, home, EVERYWHERE. I'm back to feeling like I am drowning because I have teachers telling me that they don't know what else to do...well guess what????Neither do I!!!! I mean what am I as a mother supposed to do when I have both teachers AND my husband tell me in the SAME day that they don't know what else to do with her??? Well, you can't give up on her!! That's not an option!! I'm so frustrated I could cry! In brighter musings...the girls got Easter pictures done this year and they turned out REALLY good!

December 1st! First day of the last month of the year. The girls are getting excited for Christmas, but I think are sadly under the impression that they are still going to get snow like they have every year in VA. I tried to tell them that it doesn't snow in FL...especially on the coast where we are. Don't think they will believe it until Christmas Day comes and there is no snow. Oh well. They will learn soon enough. Abby managed to break her toe and is in a boot for 2 wks until it heals enough for her to walk on it again. I'm not sure if she will be ready to dance again though in only 2 weeks. I think it is going to hurt her more than she realizes. But then again I am only the mommy....what do I know??

Autism Walk

Our family will be doing a walk for autism on September 22nd. All 5 of us will be doing it. I'm excited that our entire faimy will do something like this together. I think the girls will enjoy it. I'm hoping that what we fundraise will help Abby and kids like Abby in the area in the future. Autism is so misunderstood and many people are afraid of what they can't understand. I'm hoping our walk will help bring awareness to the growing issues we have in our country. This is Abby's fundraising site for the walk. Donate if you can, pray for us even if you can't. http://www.firstgiving.com/fundraiser/kjen/steps-for-autism-2012

Settling In...

SO, hubby finally got home,we eventually got passed all the crazy activities (Emma did awesome in her recital!!)and we are now moved, in FL, in a house and have all our stuff unpacked. The girls started school 2 wks ago, but were interrupted thanks to HUrricane Issac that caused school to close for 3 days last week. They girls seem to be adjusting ok. ITs hard getting used to daddy being home again AND moving AND a new house AND a new church, AND a new school AND a new grade, teachers, etc. My baby went to kindergaten this year!!! SNIFF!!! Hubby is now pushing for me to get a job since I "stay home all day and do nothing". Grrr. So, needless to say...adjustment has been a bit rocky...for everyone.

Enchiladas

I seem to have a love/hate relationship with them. I LOVE them....they HATE my digestive system...so, is it worth it? My mouth says yes, my guts says NO!!!

So much to do and so little time to do it in!! Only 2 weeks left of school,then Abby has her 24 hr EEG at the beginning of June, then Emma has all her crazy recital stuff going on every weekend in June, there is the EFMP day camp the 2nd last week of June then VBS, then Daddy is home, then movers, then we leave. ACK!!! I'm tired just thinking about it! Gonna have a yard sale this weekend and try to get rid of some stuff before all the craziness starts.